placing displacement

what the hell does the title mean????.....u may find out in the followin post or u may not...

basically related to life....and er..who else...but my life...

moving around could be fun..especially if it is between countries.....but it is sad too, happened with me...
leaving south africa wasnt a big deal in april 2005, but now it does sometimes...
i m sure all of us look back in the past...wonder what you have done, or in case of testing times.."what the hell i am doing here??"
i do that too a lot of times.....
so anyway i was going through some snaps the other day....and it struck me that i may not see some of them again..!! yes, it wierd... people who are not great friends, but with whom u used to hang out at some point in ur college life.....and all of a sudden u r sent back from where you came from....not that i wasn't happy to cum back...but it is simply wierd...
chek this
u enter a new country.... new people...different races...different culture...
you want to learn...but u r apprehensive..the country is labelled as "unsafe".....cant travel alone..cant explore alone...
u step into a new educational system.....which is in fact pretty good....
you begin to learn new methods....you are suddenly exposed to variety of subjects which you never knew existed....you are excited....entralled with your new life..in the process ....cultural metamorphosis is taking place.....you begin to adapt yourself....as much as you can with in your limits....you find friends....like any other teen ager change groups ..try mingling with new people....
by this time, you know all the radio shows by heart, which RJ featured on which show....u know the news channels....the entertainment industry a lil....you get used to the weather...which is extremely unpredictable.....windy most of the times....can rain on any given evening...
you also sort of get an accent....a lil tho...it jus makes you a lil more understandable...you celebrate Diwali and Id with them...
then....
you come back to your homeland...only to know that you will have to shift permanently in a few months time.....
happy or sad?
elated or depressed?
good or bad?
right or wrong?
well...
i was extremely happy when i came back....i still am..with my friends....college...what i am doing....
but i find it wierd...
that one year of my life seems to have vanished i thin air, i can't get over it at times...
that's why those who know me a lil bit would know my constant reference to SA, Durban etc...
i genuinely miss that place a lot, but sometimes...
maybe i jus needed to bid farewell properly to the country.....not in such a hurry....and for the same reason i will go back...some day i will...
Thanks to South Africa ...i did learn a lot from that country...about cultures, races, dignity, humanity....it just changed the way i think overall.
..i will visit again ...FIFA 2010 seems to be the best time!!!
anyway...
just wrote what was banging in my head from a few days.